Goin 8 years of bros actually told me that 'see how' to my advance celebration tomorrow, or rather not comin at all. Let me get this straight, even though i am servin NS, if anythin that concerns about my bros and i need to be there, i will not hesitate to say 'Yes, i will be there.' I don't feel like celebratin tomorrow suddenly, fuckin turn out me tomorrow, make me book in tomorrow. I don't feel like takin any offs on my birthday, i rather stay in camp than to get myself disappointed.

I'm not askin much, although its an advance due to Gerald's next week brunei trip, but what i got back is disappointment. I'm just askin for a celebration with me this 21st birthday, i'm not beggin you guys to come. If in your heart i am a fucker, then so be it, i won't even want to ask anyone out. I really wonder what am i in my bros' heart. Fuck it, i'm not answerin any calls tomorrow, for those who appear tomorrow, i certainly appreciate it, but for those who don't, for those who see how tomorrow then call me ask 'how, how? Go where? Got go where then tell me.' this fuck shit, i certainly know how to treat you back in return.

Suddenly i felt that Gerald is then the person i knew for 8 years.

It's been a few weeks since i last blog. Baby is naggin at my dead blog. Have been enjoyin my offs last weekend and this weekend. Bookin in tomorrow night, bookin out on Friday night and bookin in again on Saturday night due to Ex D.A - Exercise Diamond. It's a stupid exercise, because its not conduct by my own battalion, its conduct by the Leopard Tanks battalion, we just tag along and that burns away 1 weekend of mine and the followin week i have to serve my extra, means 3 weeks in a row i won't get to have a proper book out, proper weekend.

Spent every single day with baby. Wanted so much to meet up my men, but just cant get them all together for an outin. These few weeks in the month i will be busy due to these shits. ZZ. Well, as for mum, i did alot of things this 2 weeks, i hope she feel my love.

Alright that's all. See me when you' all see me.