Goin 8 years of bros actually told me that 'see how' to my advance celebration tomorrow, or rather not comin at all. Let me get this straight, even though i am servin NS, if anythin that concerns about my bros and i need to be there, i will not hesitate to say 'Yes, i will be there.' I don't feel like celebratin tomorrow suddenly, fuckin turn out me tomorrow, make me book in tomorrow. I don't feel like takin any offs on my birthday, i rather stay in camp than to get myself disappointed.

I'm not askin much, although its an advance due to Gerald's next week brunei trip, but what i got back is disappointment. I'm just askin for a celebration with me this 21st birthday, i'm not beggin you guys to come. If in your heart i am a fucker, then so be it, i won't even want to ask anyone out. I really wonder what am i in my bros' heart. Fuck it, i'm not answerin any calls tomorrow, for those who appear tomorrow, i certainly appreciate it, but for those who don't, for those who see how tomorrow then call me ask 'how, how? Go where? Got go where then tell me.' this fuck shit, i certainly know how to treat you back in return.

Suddenly i felt that Gerald is then the person i knew for 8 years.