First of all, i flunked my IPPT again and there goes my first year's IPPT. ZZ. Fuck it, fuck it. 2.4 again. Yeah, i did gave up half way through because when i looked into my stopwatch, it's already 9 minutes plus and i have only got 30 seconds left for half more lap. I was shag out. Givin up is not a choice but i made this choice because I don't think I can make it in time. Master Parade this mornin after IPPT. Its a parade for those who got marksmanship and IPPT Gold personnel. Marksmanship is for my sergeants while IPPT Gold tags are for us. If I could make it in time, i could have went up to the front and receive the tag from my OC and sew it on my No.4. The feelin is damn down upon seein those Golds goin up to take it. Before the run, my platoon mates and my sergeants are stressin me and lookin forward to see me gettin Gold. After the run, everyone's fuckin me. Fuck you la yen kiat! Where's your Gold? Didnt get to earn another Gold for the company, i think i need to train more on my speed trainin.

24 points and i cant get Gold. I'm really disappointed in myself. I just want the IPPT Gold tag on my sleeves. I should have just run with my life. Although everyone's sayin that it's easy to hit 9.44 mins, but it may not be easy for me.

This month will be a hectic month for me as i will be burnin my weekends due to live firin and guard dutys which suay-ly fall on saturdays. Which means i will only be able to book out on Sunday mornin and book in at night again. ZZ. What a month.

我已经力不从心.

I'm gonna get my Gold this comin Friday!

The time which i use to spend with my brothers is never enough.

Just a quick update on this week's event in camp. Slack and did some recaps on SAW(section automatic weapon)'s technical handlin for this week's live range which is on the thursday. It was fun, but kinda shag and my Long 4 really stinks after the range. SAW is indeed a good weapon. Not as powerful as GPMG but the handlin and recoils are much more better. No more BOBO shooter for this weapon. Friday, which is today, is my compass course. The objective is to walk alone in the jungle to find 2 out of 4 checkpoints usin a compass. Due to the rain in the mornin, my Long 4 is covered with mud. Haa. I got myself lost in the jungle at the start. I walked out of the boundary. Luckily, i can hear my friend's voice from far and find my way out. Up the slopes, down the hill, crossin the rivulet i finally found 2 checkpoints in approximately 1 1/2 hour. It may be a fuckin dirty experience, but it's afterall a fun and excitin course.

Long weekend to go. Enjoy is my top priority.

Another half min for my 2.4 km run, and i will get my Gold and my $200. I will definitely work hard on it.

Mansion-ed yesterday night. Went to Beer Belly and Martin and Whiskey Bar to meet up Wei hong and my platoon mates. 3/4 drunk, vomited. Hangin over now. ZZ.

I flunked my IPPT by 30 secs in 2.4 km run. ZZ. I wanted a gold, so badly. I tried my best, but i really sucks in my runnin.