I thought this through for a long time and i decided to work on this new goal. Hmmm, maybe NS really can change one's discipline. I decided to appeal for Polytechnic after i ORD. I'm not kiddin, i really intend to do so. Just hope that my ITE cert can make it into poly. After all, its still a long way to go, but at least i am motivated, disciplined.

My mum was naggin me about my tortoise and i found out that it has been some time since i last look at them. There they are, glad that my mum still helps me take care of them when i am in camp.

Until the day I finally get over with you, I will let them go.

Prawnin yesterday, may be fun, but cruel. Don't really bear to kill and BBQ those 'little' prawns although they are really big compared to other normal prawns. Shall meet up with the gang for prawnin soon.

Life's such a failure. Where's the eager to win attitude? Where's the 'I believe that whatever that does not kills you , can only make you stronger'? Ahh, fuck it. I cant be bothered with anythin anymore. Fuck that shit.

Maybe i lost to time.

Finally, i fuckin passed my SOC test. The timin met is not important, as long as i don't have to come back for remedial test again, and there goes my first year's SOC, cleared it once and for all. I'm waitin for my Lance Corporal rank.

The darkest moment in my life.