I never had this feelin of loneliness before. I can play basketball on my own, i can go to school on my own too, but i just simply hate this kind of feelin. I took 28 to Safra and took 28 back home without goin in to school. How dumb can i be? ZZ.

Till now, i still cant accept this fact. A series of unfortunate events happened in november. Fuck november's.

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里.

He's gone. God took him away from me, from us. He just couldnt see me for the last. The last i ever talked to him was on tuesday. He passed away last night. If i knew it was the last, i wouldnt leave him. I clearly remembered the last goodbye he said to me. *Byebye* The voice was weak, and he couldnt wave his hands goodbye. I stayed by his side until his last breath yesterday. I talked to him, i shaked him, but he just cant able to wake up. Until i saw the heart beat rate turned into a straight line, it marks the end of our kinship. The moment he's gone, i sight all the memories we had - he will fetch me to school every wednesday which is his offday when i am in primary school. Whenever he's out to drink until midnight, i will look out for him at the windows, waitin for him to come home. In my 19 years of life, i never kissed him, never touch his face to show my love for him. Yesterday, was the first and last time i can ever did these to him. I kissed him goodbye. = ' [

He went in hospital again this mornin. I cant get to sleep last night. Luckily, i cancelled my schedule today just to stay home to rest. I went visitin him this afternoon. Lesson end at 11. I mean the first lesson, and skipped the other 2 lessons which supposed to end at 4. But, who cares. I accompanied him about 3 hours and took cab home. Was too tired to take bus rides. Hmmm, i am wonderin how's my attendance this semester. Worse. ZZ. Damn it, i need a 4 GB memory stick.

Alright, mum's gettin an agent to sell our house here. We will be movin the either Red Hill, Queenstown or Tiong Bahru. Hope it delays. I wont wanna leave Tampines. She said my uncle wont be stayin with us for long, so, have to downgrade to smaller flat. Maybe its better this way. So, Whatever.

I can find no one to talk to.

AWW, finally back home again. ZZ. Work work, work and work. Bored. Midnight, afternoon, midnight, afternoon. Havin such shifts this few days, i might collapse anytime. Just reached home not long, and here i am bloggin with my eyes half closed. Thank god, i am off-ed for tomorrow.

Damn this emo-ness. I had enough.

其实还爱你.

Shag. Lesson starts at 8 everyday and everyday i'm sleepin so late. Tomorrow will be workin non-stop till thursday night. ZZ. Hope i wont get fainted. Well, cause it's double pay day. Went to town today and bought my PSP. Finally, i bought it, but it's the start of headaches and troubles. Knn. I'm declared broke. No drinkin for me for the time bein. Should go get some sleep now, if not i wont have the energy to play PSP in class tomorrow. Haa. By the way, i received my NS interview letter yesterday, and i called for an interview on the 19th, 9 a.m. =]

I'm always alone. Maybe i prefer and used to be like that. =[

我好想你.

Home sweet home~ Cant stop sneezin right now, due to my damn sinus. ZZ. Don't know which bastard is scoldin me now. Have been drinkin non-stop for the past 4 days. Must stop all these soon i guess. Didnt mean to scold you guys yesterday. Just hope you all will understand what i have said and wake up. Cheers brothers.

Home~

Pics of the day! Haa. Hmmm, took this pics in CU. Well, drinkin is still the best thing to do.